I want you to hate me

Hate me? , I know u really hate right now , it is ok , I got used to it already , it has been for a few month . I know, you are trying very hard to maintain the relationship between us . Eventually it is useless ,because i am not person who u think I am . I am a person who can make friend but I can't maintain the relationship between us . So it is useless to make friend for now , at last we will still broke apart . I am not your only option . Go find other person, that who can really treat you will . It is a mistake to be your friend . No matter how hard I push you away , will always be there for me.... It really make me very hard to end the relationship . To tell you the truth I only have one year in lodge after then that I might move to other country , so can u tell me what is the point of making friend that only last a year. A friend told me that , why do you want to end the relationship seen like you really like her a lot ? I 'told' him the answer and he agree with me . He actually know how I feel for the first time. He had suggest many way to solve my problem , but in the end it don't work.......... And I just can't believe I told him the answer -.- ...., so u still want to be my friend knowing relationship on last a year ? You think u can be my friend for a year ? I can't live the fact that knowing the relationship is just for a year , then I better no make any friend...... I just hate saying goodbye and never see them again......

hmmmm.... Tonight I really write a lot...

The Way I pray

Dear Load Jesus,

Please cleanse me with your blood Load Jesus Jesus, cleanse my family and my friend Load Jesus , Jesus i need help Load Jesus . Please, Load Jesus bless me with Wisdom,i need your help, load Jesus. Bless me with health Load Jesus Bless me with wealth oh Load Jesus i know i should n`t ask for wealth Load Jesus , and Bless my friend and family Load Jesus    Protect me load Jesuss, I need your help Load Jesus ,Sent your holy spirit , to Protect me Load Jesus watch over me Load Jesus Guide me to the correct way path Load Jesus, I need your help. Load Jesus, Please show me you are there for me. Control me Load Jesus i need to be like you,Load Jesus. You will be there for me Load Jesuss. I need you Load Jesus , I pray because i believe in you ,Load Jesus be there for me Load Jesus . In Jesus name i pray : Amen!! 

Medicine

Oh~ the word medicine it really scared me :( can u believe that i have to take it every night and finish it in a month ...... You can try to google it , i believe it`s called MEDOMYCIN - let` me explain even more , it a antibiotics , preventing bacteria to grow / replicate and increase in numbers.

EMO-ing

Mathematics

EMO³=  Who don`t smile³ +Every moment in tears² +, -(Stay away form people)

Stereotyped emos

Turning emo is something that happens over a long period of time, Emo people develop over time mainly because they have life issues, issues that make them feel alone and worthless in the world, like nobody is there for them.
How to start ?
1. they wear black

2.they like to be alone

3.anything dealing with the genre of music that is emo, rock, metal
4.black nail polish

5.Emo people cut there own selves. usually on they wrist

6.they might think of suicide

i was emo once....

when i broke up....

i was heartbroken......
i slit my wrist.....

listend to sad music.....
didnt really care about anything.....
just was depressed.....
and cried at last......